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July 23, 2008

in other words…

Over the weekend Break Boy happened to mention to me that it drives my boss insane if you crack your knuckles around him. Yesterday I had three meetings with him and I absent-mindedly cracked my knuckles in all of them. And then I kept realizing I was doing it and kept saying I was sorry. (I'm not sorry.)

I gave PiC one of my MOO cards so he could read my blog when I move away to the city. I have a feeling he has jumped the gun and started reading now. (Hi, PiC!!!!!~1!`1!1`!!!11111111!11) He's in charge of my going away party. There better be cake.

Random fact: I don't really like cake. Except the one he's getting me.

And, really, the rest of this post is very random too, so enjoy that…

Sometime last year I began to clean my innie belly button with minty toothpaste on the end of a moistened Q-tip because I can't stand it being dirty. (Genius, I know!) I also don't like my belly button being touched, most likely because I think of it as dirty. I wonder if I've changed my mind on this since I now clean it with toothpaste. Hmm. (No, this is not a public invitation for belly button touching. Try it and risk your fingers being broken.)

I like bugs. Like, a lot. I love to watch them crawl around. I find most bugs very beautiful and fascinating. If my mind enjoyed science a little better I'd most probably be a veterinarian, but have entomology as a hobby.

I applied to be a translator for the NSA one month before September 11th. I had started learning Arabic randomly. I was sad when I was sent the standard "you're not quite good enough, Random Citizen" letter. And then this one day planes were used as weapons and I was confused about if I should be happy I wasn't accepted or spiteful that the NSA should have chosen me because I could have saved all those people. Years later I know it's not my job to save everyone.

Speaking of saving everyone… I still don't understand why we have to save the cheerleader if she can't freaking DIE. Anyone? And, really, you need to have a very good explanation because I already don't believe you.

When I move I plan to do a lot of walking around to learn my way. I really think it's important to be able to get anywhere vital by walking. Even if that means walking to public transportation, that's still walking.

I like to sing songs. I stumbled across something I enjoy doing but never knew I did, and that's recording me in the dark singing songs. So far I've just been singing an intentionally off-key version of Istanbul, Not Constantinople over and over again. I really enjoy it. It's melancholic.

I did this! At 33! But that's not my postcard. And everyone who finds out that I went through the life changes I did sees in my face how happy I am and it makes them grin from ear to ear.

Thank you, I think they are too.

Happy birthday to Bearette (yesterday) and Shelli (tomorrow)!!!

July 17, 2008

We'll call it summer vacation.

I'm taking a blogosphere break until further notice.

If I don't tell you I'm doing this you'll wonder if I'm ok after a day of no posts.
If I do tell you I'm doing this you'll wonder why I'm doing this.

Lose-lose.

It boils down to me not having time for made up drama or real drama that is upsetting me so badly I'm sitting here shaking in my seat I'm so angry, even after talking to my best girlfriend, my co-worker, and my mom about it.

I have shit to get done. I'm off to do that shit.

Moving on! Feel free to email me about your day, the price of gasoline, how much you love your significant other's ears, what scares you about being in the dark, what your favorite color is, how much you enjoyed that summer movie blockbuster, what you had for dinner, and I'll gladly have an email exchange with you. Deal? Deal. :smiles:

Dear Break Boy's Lovely Wife,

Thank you for understanding me and being on my side. I am going to miss you so very, very much.

And thank you for fiiiiiinally getting on Facebook. :smiles:

Love,
Poppy

(Ok, I need to go cry now. Bye.)

I'm totally hotlinking. Suck it, bitch Blogger.

I love Morgy.

July 16, 2008

10 babies

Borrowing from Neil, I will start off by saying that this is 10% dramatization, 90% truth. I'll let you figure out which 10% isn't quite the truth.

The scene: Poppy's brother has forced her to have birthday lunch with him and Poppy's dad. Poppy arrives and is asked how life is going. Poppy mentions that she got a raise (which she did) and got a security certification (which she did). And then conversation turns to The Future:

Dad: You have any news?

Because me getting a raise and a security certification is not news to my dad, apparently.

Poppy: I'll be unemployed and homeless at the end of the month!
Dad: *mouth agape*
Poppy: Yup, it'll be great! *smile*
Dad: *mouth agape*
Poppy: I'm really excited about it!
Dad: Are you serious?
Poppy: Yes!
Dad: What's your goal?
Poppy: *blank stare*
Dad: What's your goal in New York?
Big Brother: (coming to my rescue) To be happy.
Poppy: Yes, that!
Dad: So, you're not going to work?
Poppy and Big Brother: *blank stare*
Poppy: Yes, that's exactly why I just told you that I got a raise and a certification, because I plan to sit at home.
Dad: I mean, to take care of children.
Poppy: I have a career! I don't have children!
Dad: But, when you do, you're staying home…?

Allow me to clarify: I am not With Child. This conversation is completely random. But apparently my only goal that is acceptable to my father is if I have babies he won't ever see because he won't ever come to New York City (his words, not mine). Apparently me having a really kickass information security career is out of his comfort zone. Apparently I am supposed to be home barefoot and pregnant.

Poppy: No, Dad. I'm the meal ticket! Dawg's following me wherever my career takes me!
Dad: But, you're staying home with the kids, right?
Big Brother: (under his breath) Just give up. Just say yes. Make him stop.
Poppy: Yes. I'm staying home to take care of 10 babies. Better?
Dad: Yes, all better.
Poppy: Glad I could please you. Hate to break up the party, but I hafta go resign now.

End scene.

July 15, 2008

time after time

I got a present from Finn cuz she :pinkpuffyheart: me:

Finn keeps beautiful time

YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY! The original chef d'oeuvre is found here.

In other news, I resigned today.

July 14, 2008

Like it was yesterday, but a lifetime ago…

…and every day it keeps getting even better.


January 8, 2008 - The Year of the Poppy



January 12, 2008 - A gift in exchange for a non-gift (or two…)



January 13, 2008 - DEAR DAWG DO YOU LIKE ME CIRCLE YES OR NO



January 14, 2008 - He circled yes!!!!!!! :} :} :}




Happy half-a-year-versary, baby. :love:


July 13, 2008

10 things about Poppy

1. I am very deep/introspective. I know this. I can't help myself, nor do I want to.
2. I'm not very good at catching feral kitten-cats.
3. I giggle at inappropriate moments during movies.
4. I love space of all kinds, especially the space I'll never get to hang out in.
5. I have a second boyfriend named Kit Kat. He got to second base with me. Dawg was not pleased.
6. I like my steak done medium well, regardless of the cut. Don't bitch at me for liking it this way. It will do you no good.
7. I have a habit of imagining myself into other people's situations and feeling their pain. Apparently I like pain.
8. I like grape and pineapple juice the best, equally.
9. I am wanty, not needy, as was made clear to me on Saturday. :smiles:
10. I am sometimes misunderstood simply because I'm quirky in the way I speak.

Isn't it fun when I write a totally BS post like this? YAH!

Hi, all my friends in CANADA!

Ok, back to my weekend of totally goofing off. Bye!

July 12, 2008

Soyuz power bolt spacewalk

From Tom's Astronomy Blog:

I’m watching a seem[ing]ly very dangerous spacewalk on NASA TV. Two Cosmonauts are removing a pyrobolt, one of those bolts that explode to separate. This one is on the Soyuz capsule attached to the ISS. They think this will fix the problem the Soyuz has had with the past two dangerous landings. This is pretty tense!

It’s loose. . . .

The spacewalkers are ISS Commander Sergei Volkov and Flight Engineer Oleg Kononenko.

“Thank god” says one of the spacewalkers as they get the bolt into a blast proof box — very dramatic and amazing video!

Official information about the walk is provided by NASA.

July 11, 2008

Writing the things I cannot say out of my mouth because I was born with a broken mouth

I am really out of sorts.

Something happened last night that has happened before, will happen again, really shouldn't be a big deal, hasn't been a big deal in the past, but this time was just different for me. I got so upset after it happened that I was angry, confused, and so incredibly frustrated that I worked myself into an anxiety attack. Nothing to do but wait for the other side of those, so that's what I did. Sobbing and heaving and, fucking a do I fucking HATE that. Other side, and I'm still fuming about it and questioning my entire life's purpose and wishing I could go to sleep but I was so worked up that all I could do was sit in the dark and get angry and cry, repeat.

I woke up this morning feeling slightly less of that, but as the morning progressed and I was trying to clean up my apartment in case it gets shown today and pack up my things to go to New York I just got more upset again. And I noticed Georgie's weepy eye then saw the vomit on her treat plate and I almost stayed home just to take care of my sick kid, which to the working world doesn't mean a damn thing, but then she got all silly happy and rolled around and loved the love I was giving her so I decided she was ok and I left.

But I'm still completely not myself. I don't understand why I get completely psycho over something that isn't even anything to get all worked up about. Except I guess it's my insecurity about the stability of my life that sent me over this edge and I just need to take time to let it sink in that everything's going to work out just fine and I should stop worrying that every little thing is a sign of me not being good enough.